I know it has been a while since i last posted but i need to tell someone about what is going through my head even if i don't know who you are.
I don't think i have ever felt so alone, i have noone to talk to about how i feel, i am so lonely and confused about what to do. I am so sick and tired of being the "black sheep" in my family, the one who lets everybody down. I admit i have no talents and i hardly ever do what my mum and dad tell me to do, i have a big attitude problem, but does that mean i should feel this alone? My sister tells me i am annoying and she has told me that she wishes i did not exsist and i can not even count how many times she has told me that she hates me. What she does not understand is that she is lucky, she gets 1000 KR every week, I get maxium 10 KR, I am jelous of her. It is not as if she is 18 or even 16, she is just 14 and i am 13 but there is a big different between us. My brother has always been the favourite, the amazing football star that can do nothing wrong in my mum's opinion, he gets whatever he wants without even saying please.
Somedays are really good, i am as happy as can be but others i can cry all day, my mum says it is hormones and brushes it under the carpet but i know that she does not want to notice that i am not happy. Giving my mum credit she does try to cheer me up but it never works and My dad just sees my bad attitude.
There is noone i can talk to. I just don't belong anywhere is seems.
I don't know what i should do... How i will ever feel better and when i will.
today at school it is christmas decoration day! it is when we have to decorate our classrooms and the best classroom wins a free trip to the cinema. We had a christmas tree and lots of cool decorations everywhere. We also watched a movie, we watched a christmas carol. It was lots of fun and a good friday. This song really puts me in the mood for christmas: http://youtu.be/LUjn3RpkcKY (i would put it on my blog but blogg.se won't let me and i do not know why!)
Today i got up and went to school. My first lesson was maths, and it was so boring and then i had science and all we did was play this stupid dice game. Then we had special activites where we was divided into our houses and we played sports activities like football and chair ball. (our houses are the ones after harry potter, i am huffleppuff). WE WON! so we got a special trea which was really nice. Then i had english and we are remaking hamlet. (pictures of the activites coming soon)
I am in the competion to blog on http://nellieberntsson.se/ for the day I think nellie is an amazing girl, she is only quite young but she has achieved so much! She is a good rider and a great blogger and a brilliant actress. Join the competion.
I have just finished my math and science homework! The science was 38 questions! The math was this boring thing about pyramids that i did not understand a word of! I have been trying to upload loas of pictures but my computer is being stupid!
My list for the blog for this week:
At least one post a day
answer questions (if i get any :D)
video blog for Tuesday (vote for the topic the video blog should be about)
song of the week
celebrity of the moment (every week)
I hope you will keep reading maddisonfairs.blogg.se eventhough i have been away for a couple of months i always come back! ♥
I cant believe it! even though i have not been blogging i have still been having 7 readers! Thank you to everyone that has kept looking at my blog even though there is nothing on here.
